Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

Fake smile on my face

 I walk around with a smile on my face all day, 

but inside im frowning and wishing you would understand.

my lips tell a lie
Inside I just want to cry
I must get through the day

I try to laugh about it,
 cover it all up with lies..

 I try to laugh about it,
 hiding the tears in my eyes..

 Smile and make you think I’m happy
  I laugh, so you don’t see me cry
I look at you and hide the pain inside
I feel myself dying but you see me survive...

..
Everyone asked if i am okay

they want me to say wat?
no.. i'm not okay. and then what? so i
just smile and say i'm fine .. but
i'm really dying inside..seriously

You ask me what’s wrong and I say nothing, but as a tear falls, I say everything
 

im a girl..

girl who seems to be SO strong 

but daily continues to break..

that girl whos always there and seems to have NO problems of her own. the one who holds back tears. ..

until shes off the phone..

I know it seems like

I'm strong person who can get through anything,

but inside I'm fragile.

It hurts 2 feel that no one is there 4 you
and that nobdoy cares

No one knows what I'm thinking
No one understands me
No one know how I really feel
No one knows what I'm like under this mask
No one cares that they hurt me...

My dreams tell me secrets
My mind tells me lies
My heart screams for help
My eyes only cry

Sometimes i just feel like
Running away....
just to see who really cares

I'm going to smile..
and make u think im happy..
im going to laugh..
so u dont see me cry..
and even if it kills me..
im going to smile..

I don't know what to do anymore,
I never see a smile in the mirror,
I only see pain..

* hanya padaMU aku bersandar...